Friday, March 31, 2006
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
Sleepy Me
Home is now wireless enabled. It's so cool! Technology is indeed a convenience. Was watching the Charmed ones cast their spells while doing my banking at the same time. Then I wondered, how come no one ever does a Fight Club? For those of you who have not watched this superb movie (must get DVD!), credit institutions were demolished in it. Think about this, no more debts! No more remaining balance! Zero credit! Not forgetting Brad Pitt was violently gorgeous to watch.
Ended up chatting with a few friends online and before I knew it, the clock struck one. Not that late into the night but I am a weekday Cinderella. Working in the city does take its toll on me. Sleep is vital. Sleep is good. Mondays to Fridays mental note to myself: settle sleep debt during the weekend. But alas, weekend comes, weekend goes and the hours of sleep I get are minimal thanks to the various charity organisations and amount of church work I am involved in *angel smiley*.
Colleague just told me she's never gonna have Char Kuey Teow for lunch again as it makes her sleepy...*speechless*
Anyway, something to look forward to - the upcoming holidays. Gonna be a long weekender. Weeeeee! Keep your tweedledum fingers and tweedledee toes crossed for me that my leave will be approved. Failing which someone's gonna have a flash flood of whining to bear. Don't care what I do as long as work is not in the menu.
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
Post Mortem
I have more or less moved on and the life I’m having now, plus-minus is the life I used to miss. Of course there can always be improvements, enhancements but I guess as persistent a creature I am, some things do take time and I have to pay my dues and be patient. For all that is fated to be mine, shall be mine when the time comes, right? And if I do not obtain my heart’s desires and fulfill my dreams then perhaps this is as good as it gets, what the One above thinks I deserve.
Everything has its season, everything happens for a reason.
I taste freedom now. Emancipated, but somehow a part of me stubbornly refuses to acknowledge this new lease, lost in the realms of the past. Maybe the only way to grasp full release is to go cold turkey. Numb myself. Equip my heart with a steel armour against the yesterdays and going forth, not back and forth. Be bold and be strong, banish my fears and doubts. Rejoice and cherish things that are real, that are in front of me.
We make the decisions; our lives are ours to lead in the end. The world is as accepting as you want it to be.
Yes, but somehow somewhere in there someone forgot to mention that there will always be key elements to put into consideration which will influence your choice unless one chooses to ignore it at all costs whatsoever.
You told me once that I had the spirit to do just that. You saw in me the strength and courage to hold on to what I truly believed in, through the fire, to hell and back…I thought I did too but I disappointed not only you but myself in the process.
Whatever we choose, we live with the resulting consequences. Weep alone or the world weeps because of you. Make the sacrifice or love thyself and be selfish.
They say sometimes you’ve got to turn your head and walk to the door.
So many people in the world to love, why do we worry about one?
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Friday, March 24, 2006
3 Good Things
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
Quitting You

Wednesday, March 15, 2006
The Hands, Mind & Heart
...The Hands will not perform if the Mind does not understand and the Heart does not commit...
Best line I picked up during my full day training session today.
More vomits of training sessions scheduled for.
Sigh...tired and leaving for the day for some TeoChew porridge.
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
Mua, the OCBC
***Dialing Tone***
Maxis waiting promos heard in Mandarin (I thought this was weird but slash ignored)
Operator: Morning Ms *****, Thank you for calling Maxis. How may I help you? (language used was Mandarin too!)
I was like...what the??!!
I replied in English obviously and asked why is everything in Mandarin. The operator said it was requested by the owner of the number.
Riiiiiiiiiiiiiighttttttttttttt!Pleeeeeeeeeeease! *lol*
The day that happened must have been the day someone obsessed with speaking Mandarin took over my body. I mean even if one knew how to speak Mandarin, he/she would not have done so unless they are only fluent in Mandarin.
No sirree not me! Error to the max!
P/S Yes, I can actually understand and speak simple, basic Mandarin. Not THAT much of a super banana :P.
Monday, March 13, 2006
Irrelevant but Nevertheless...
I pondered. Practical side of me said, "Why are you even thinking?! It's not like we'll ever be given the option to select. Heck, you don't even know if you'll ever earn enough brownie points to enter Heaven in the first place! Considering the sins that you have accumulated."
True I told myself but that's a question mark and the answer will only be revealed when I die. Although if I were to find myself standing at the gates in the next blink of the eye, my gut feel is that I very much, most probably, almost immediately will be denied entry. I will be given the boot, plunge and perish in hell instead.
But let's put aside my 'flaming' thoughts. Imagine, being able to choose...like a tour package.
Eternal life in Heaven
Package 2
Personally maneuvered happiness for 10, 20 years but with no afterlife
Which package would you buy? I'm still pondering...and casting the net out as my inquiring mind would like to know anyone's thoughts.
Saturday, March 11, 2006
A Quickie Post
4 hours of listening to someone ramble on about his department is not at all my cup of tea on a Saturday morning. I should be in a horizontal position now...under my covers...dreaming the impossible dream.
Thursday, March 09, 2006
Baby Talk
Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps...
It's a possibility. Never say never right? For those who do, ever so often end up swallowing their own words instead.
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
A, B, C or D?
Results? I am a Type B. First sentence simply confirms the accuracy of it.
Right smack in the middle of the week and I can’t wait for the weekend although I have a half day training session on Saturday. Simply B.O.L.L.O.C.K.S!!! Sniff :(
What Type Are You?
B. Stop eating and just pay and go. (To Qn 10)
understand yourself more.
I Love Women
Today, a friend who I've lost contact with called me out of the blues and asked me the infamous question, “What do you want in a Man?”. Remembered I had two postings last year that sprung up quite a debate and hence forth, I am going to republish a combination of the articles with my own words added.
This is for you A...my notion of the Ideal Man.
“A man who is striving for perfection in every aspect of life. A man who is striving for perfection mentally because I need conversation and mental stimulation. A man who is striving for perfection financially because I don’t need a financial burden. A man who is sensitive enough to understand what I go through as a woman, but strong enough to keep me grounded. A man who has patience and not pushing for a commitment I'm either unwilling to give or can't give at a point in time. A man who feels glad with my company just as much as I enjoy his. A man who is honest with me - my life has already been so full of negatives that I appreciate the positives - and honesty is one of them. A man who will allow me to be his friend - don't shut me out when trouble comes. I have a mind and ideas that may be useful - let me try to help. A man who will be my friend - listen to what I say - give me some feedback to show he’s listening to me - hug me when I'm down - kiss me when I hurt - hold me when I cry; be there holding my hand if I'm silent. It's sometimes just enough to know that he cares - and I'll do the same for him. A man whom I can respect. In order to be submissive, I must respect him. I cannot be submissive to a man who isn’t taking care of his business. I have no problem being submissive…he just has to be worthy. God made woman to be a help mate for man. I can’t help a man if he can’t help himself. And all in all, a man who loves me for me and who will never try and change me into someone I’m not for that was not who he fell in love with in the first place…”
Happy World Women's Day to all the ladies. Let's celebrate our independance, individualism and spirit as a woman in this day of age. Destiny's Child's 'Independant Women' is grooving in my head right now. Reckon it is the absolute choice for a theme song.
All the women who are independent, throw your hands up at me!
Oops, the pic may be a little backdated but it does serves its purpose. Besides, it's so UCB :)
Monday, March 06, 2006
Doggie Love
There is one thing that I need to do this week in which I have been procrastinating and as I stand at the crossroad between not doing it and finally getting it over and done with, I have one thing to say…
“Amores Perros...”
Amores Perros (AP) directed by Alejandro Gonzalez Inarritu is a Mexican film that was nominated for a Best Foreign Film Oscar in 2001. Was reminded about it when a random discussion of the Best Picture winner this year (Crash) sprung up at work. Was rooting for Brokeback Mountain though. I admit it's a bious choice because of obvious reasons why, namely Mr Ang Lee. As I was saying, I thought of AP because it coincidentally runs on a similar theme with Crash. I forgot the title and in an attempt to, my inner CPU only managed to recall two things about it.
1. There were lots of dogs in it (Yes, woof, woof! Doggie year it is)
2. There was a horrific car accident and a model was paralysed
Some of us swear by Google but I have been Yahoo-fied since the beginning. I remember my first ever search was for Mariah Carey thanks to my uncle who opened up the envelope to the world of cyberspace for me. Gosh, how the woman has morphed.
I digressed.
What similar plot?
Everyone’s life is interwoven. At each intersection, the characters are faced with a choice and a decision, which will bring about the domino effect, affecting the lives of others that do/do not have a connection with them. For AP, the central force of this film is ultimately, Love. Love fuels, love drives all actions and emotions. I can't say for Crash but I reckon it is along the same line from the synopsis I have read. However, there is a racist touch to it with people from different racial and economical backgrounds colliding.
Sigh, love…can’t live with it…can’t live without it.
As Ashley sings, L-O, L-O, L-O, L-O-V-E…(Love this song! Its catchy and upbeat rhythm just makes me sing along everytime. I'm even thinking of saving it as one of my ringtones. Ha!)
I digressed again.
This fresh from my memory... another film to add to the list with an intertwining touch is also from the same director as AP - 21 Grams starring Naomi Watts and Sean Penn which was also nominated for an Oscar but for Best Picture.
There are times when we’ve got to do what we've got to do…
What is so true about these films is the real life, daily struggles impersonation is portrays. When we watch a film, we are merely spectators witnessing the stories of onscreen lives unfold to the finale. Sometimes however, a particular situation may be of one that we are experiencing and our emotions are heightened because we feel what the character feels. The end might leave us feeling worse, more encumbered but perhaps it could be the positive awakening of a realization. Making us braver to confront what we have been too cowardly to do or assist us in making a decision which we have been torturing, tormenting, tearing ourselves apart with.
Catch these films if you can but bear in mind that love is not depicted like sweet strawberry shortcake in AP and 21 Grams but an idealized bitter pill that leads to misery, brutality, resentment, coldness and pain. Shall grab the DVD for Crash soon to see if it is true to my predictions.
Life is simple, we make it complicated.
Life is simple, Love makes it complicated.
Friday, March 03, 2006
50 Cent's Love Equation
Since I heard 50 Cents rap recently, I shall quote from one of his songs, 21 Questions which I heard this morning on the way to work. This line just tickles me. As corny as it sounds, he does have a point there doesn't he?
Yay, it’s Friday but Boo-Hoo :( cos’ I’ve gotta work tomorrow. Sigh…anyone kind enough to volunteer and be my chauffeur at 6am? Brownie points to be earned for future use. Ha!
Thursday, March 02, 2006
F*@Ker's Fault
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And there you have it.
Tagged Again...
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My England also veli de powderful :P. Get well soon Lady BD. No worries, Maddox J. Pitt's homeland shall be awaiting your arrival :)
As usual, same old story I’m tagging KG, Wengster, Fay Fay and Cheyanne *chuckle*. The cycle continues.
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FUCK YOU WALKING PIECE OF USELESS SHIT, SLIMEBUCKET RUBBISH OF SOCIETY , FUNGUS INFECTED MUCUS, PEA BRAIN BASTARD, ASSHOLE SCUMBAG SON OF A WHORE!
YOU AND ALL OF YOUR KIND DESERVE TO HAVE EACH OF YOUR PATHETIC DANGLING DICKS CHOPPED OFF AND HUNG FROM A CEILING!
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
Genetics of Time
Back from my wonderful and I must say, peaceful escapade. If only I could bottle up all the happiness I felt in a jar for keeps. Would certainly come in handy during WiSP (Wallowing in Self Pity) days. If only I could, I would with a pretty purple ribbon the shade of my future purple tulips.
Found this quote today while doing some research for work. Just goes to remind me again that life is a series of choices we make. Every decision creating an outcome that leads to more choices to be made and bringing forth more decisions thereafter.
My soul is tired and my heart is weak. What I’m trying to accept now...