Friday, March 31, 2006

Darn Me

Arrrrrrrrrrgghhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!
I accidentally deleted it! @$#%%!!$$ My new posting!?! *clenching fists**stomping feet**banging table**knocking head on the wall*
I gave up. Too lazy to try and remember and reconstruct . The words shall remain locked up in the confines of my mind. It was a sign. Not meant to be published.
Another day but the same complicated mind...and there lies another love of hope's design...
Just don't know what to do with myself. Anyone has any suggestions? What's the solution to being more simple minded? To not wanting more that you can chew. To being complacent. To not being a fully loaded think tank. To being as BD puts it 'Happy Happy'.
I need sleep but I refuse to and I have no idea why. Been telling myself to catch up on my sleep for the past one hour ago but here I am. Too stubborn for my own good and tomorrow, I shall be whining again on how sleepy I am when I could have gotten more rest the night before.
Sigh...I give up on me. I need some re-formatting. I am shutting down for the day. This time for real.

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

Sleepy Me

Last night I stayed up later than usual and I'm paying for it. I currently have the 3 seconds ability to doze of in the midst of this working day.

Home is now wireless enabled. It's so cool! Technology is indeed a convenience. Was watching the Charmed ones cast their spells while doing my banking at the same time. Then I wondered, how come no one ever does a Fight Club? For those of you who have not watched this superb movie (must get DVD!), credit institutions were demolished in it. Think about this, no more debts! No more remaining balance! Zero credit! Not forgetting Brad Pitt was violently gorgeous to watch.

Ended up chatting with a few friends online and before I knew it, the clock struck one. Not that late into the night but I am a weekday Cinderella. Working in the city does take its toll on me. Sleep is vital. Sleep is good. Mondays to Fridays mental note to myself: settle sleep debt during the weekend. But alas, weekend comes, weekend goes and the hours of sleep I get are minimal thanks to the various charity organisations and amount of church work I am involved in *angel smiley*.

Colleague just told me she's never gonna have Char Kuey Teow for lunch again as it makes her sleepy...*speechless*

Anyway, something to look forward to - the upcoming holidays. Gonna be a long weekender. Weeeeee! Keep your tweedledum fingers and tweedledee toes crossed for me that my leave will be approved. Failing which someone's gonna have a flash flood of whining to bear. Don't care what I do as long as work is not in the menu.

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

Post Mortem

You don’t always get what you want, you get what you need.

I have more or less moved on and the life I’m having now, plus-minus is the life I used to miss. Of course there can always be improvements, enhancements but I guess as persistent a creature I am, some things do take time and I have to pay my dues and be patient. For all that is fated to be mine, shall be mine when the time comes, right? And if I do not obtain my heart’s desires and fulfill my dreams then perhaps this is as good as it gets, what the One above thinks I deserve.

Everything has its season, everything happens for a reason.

I taste freedom now. Emancipated, but somehow a part of me stubbornly refuses to acknowledge this new lease, lost in the realms of the past. Maybe the only way to grasp full release is to go cold turkey. Numb myself. Equip my heart with a steel armour against the yesterdays and going forth, not back and forth. Be bold and be strong, banish my fears and doubts. Rejoice and cherish things that are real, that are in front of me.

We make the decisions; our lives are ours to lead in the end. The world is as accepting as you want it to be.

Yes, but somehow somewhere in there someone forgot to mention that there will always be key elements to put into consideration which will influence your choice unless one chooses to ignore it at all costs whatsoever.

You told me once that I had the spirit to do just that. You saw in me the strength and courage to hold on to what I truly believed in, through the fire, to hell and back…I thought I did too but I disappointed not only you but myself in the process.

Whatever we choose, we live with the resulting consequences. Weep alone or the world weeps because of you. Make the sacrifice or love thyself and be selfish.

They say sometimes you’ve got to turn your head and walk to the door.
They say time will make the pain and misery go away.
They say passerà…it will pass..........but they’re not in your shoes.
Passerà…it will pass................I pray it will.

So many people in the world to love, why do we worry about one?

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.:For MP:.
You’ve been with me…
All the way, through good or bad, happy or sad
Out of the blue you came into my life
Revived me and made my soul glad
You brought back the happy in my ness
You put the good times into my fun
Our special us place is where everything is under the sun
You amaze me at times with your perpetual presence in my life
Thank you for your love, your enduring patience and for all your strife…

Friday, March 24, 2006

3 Good Things

1. I've got a new PC at work
Downloaded MSN and was denied installation. I shrieked. User NOT authorised, was the prompt. Oh no! *hands on cheeks* No MSN?!!! How will I get through the work day?! Noooooooooooo! I can't live without MSN! Immediate destination: IT department: and I was prepared to beg Mr. Potato to grant me access. Cons about being in the corporate world. Everything is so filtered, protected and guarded where people with no regards for certain company policies like me simply choose to ignore and rebel against :). He asked why the need for MSN. I said, "I work with agencies and our inbox can only accept 3MB so I send and receive files through MSN instead". Ha ha, I know it sounds absolutely L.A.M.E. but who cares?! It worked! Hhmm, can I say it was my charms that worked? *chuckle* Anyhow, something worked for sure and I am once again part of the growing worldwide community of MSN users at work. Splendid!
2. PSS Babe's birthday bash is tomorrow night, not tonight
Yay! I don't have to drag myself up from bed at 7 freaking a.m. tomorrow for training. Which means I can party on late till the sun comes up tomorrow and sleep like an oink oink the next day! Theme: Black Lace/Feathers. Yup! Just my colour and I have just the perfect outfit for the night. Gonna be such an ultra-cool night. Yahoo!
3. Managed to get RM80 monthly parking in KL
Is this cheap or what?! Even for PJ standards. I have been paying 8 bloody 20 a day for the past 2 months. Darn car park increased its price from 8 bucks then to 8.20. Don't ask me what the extra 20 is for. Everyday when the attendant collects my money, I feel the resentment in paying and I'll put on a somewhat unsatisfied look . I know it's not his fault but I could not care less. He's not exactly the friendliest of people either. To make things worse, the car park is not tarred for goodness sake! It even floods when it rains! No worries...this girl ain't gonna feel bitter no more with her new car park...Hurray!
My my, aren't I a happy soul? I am sounding pretty chirpy huh? Not very me...out of my usual motion and common emotions. That's because I have decided this weekend to focus on the positives and not dwell on my fears and sorrows when I can't manage it yet. I'm giving myself a break. My complicated mind applied for leave and it has been approved by M.E. M.Y.S.E.L.F. & I. When will it report back for duty? Indefinite hiatus status. I'm leaving it to its own devices although I'm sure it will be back again for I know it so well...
*Alert* Signs of mood digressing detected. Think positive. Happy thoughts. Suddenly I am thinking....Sound of Music.
Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens
Bright copper kettles and warm woolen mittens
Brown paper packages tied up with strings
These are a few of my favourite things
La la la laaaa la....*humming*
Have a good weekend people! Be good! Don't do anything that I wouldn't do...but then again I would do anything. Ha ha! Cheerios! Toodle Loo!

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

Quitting You

My bottled heart I gave to you
I’m so sorry I could not see us through
I lost the will, the strength and courage
Our love was somehow an emotional bondage
Little by little pieces of me were fading
The pain of staying became greater than the pain of leaving
I will live with the remains of the sutures
And strive to build new hopes for an alternative future
For now the ghost of you haunts me relentlessly
May the passing of time make us nothing but a fond memory
A love that the world did not understand
A special love, that was all about two people in their own land
I love you more than you will ever know
The hardest part about hanging on is letting you go...knowing that you love me so...
-1712322-

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

The Hands, Mind & Heart

...The Hands will not perform if the Mind does not understand and the Heart does not commit...

Best line I picked up during my full day training session today.

More vomits of training sessions scheduled for.

Sigh...tired and leaving for the day for some TeoChew porridge.

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

Mua, the OCBC

Lately I've been having problems sending MMS. Have to try a few times before one is successfully sent. This morning, after my numerous futile attempts, I called Maxis.

***Dialing Tone***
Maxis waiting promos heard in Mandarin (I thought this was weird but slash ignored)
Operator: Morning Ms *****, Thank you for calling Maxis. How may I help you? (language used was Mandarin too!)

I was like...what the??!!
I replied in English obviously and asked why is everything in Mandarin. The operator said it was requested by the owner of the number.

Riiiiiiiiiiiiiighttttttttttttt!Pleeeeeeeeeeease! *lol*
The day that happened must have been the day someone obsessed with speaking Mandarin took over my body. I mean even if one knew how to speak Mandarin, he/she would not have done so unless they are only fluent in Mandarin.

No sirree not me! Error to the max!

P/S Yes, I can actually understand and speak simple, basic Mandarin. Not THAT much of a super banana :P.

Monday, March 13, 2006

Irrelevant but Nevertheless...

Picked up on my reading of Catherine Lim's 'Unhurried Thoughts At My Funeral' over the weekend and the subject of eternity in heaven as opposed to happiness on earth was dwelled upon.
Would you trade eternity in Heaven for 10, maybe 20 years of happiness on Earth?
...where you can play God and have the powers that be to tailor and customise your own perfection of happiness. Your fairytale come true. Your happy ending...

I pondered. Practical side of me said, "Why are you even thinking?! It's not like we'll ever be given the option to select. Heck, you don't even know if you'll ever earn enough brownie points to enter Heaven in the first place! Considering the sins that you have accumulated."

True I told myself but that's a question mark and the answer will only be revealed when I die. Although if I were to find myself standing at the gates in the next blink of the eye, my gut feel is that I very much, most probably, almost immediately will be denied entry. I will be given the boot, plunge and perish in hell instead.

But let's put aside my 'flaming' thoughts. Imagine, being able to choose...like a tour package.
Package 1
Eternal life in Heaven

Package 2
Personally maneuvered happiness for 10, 20 years but with no afterlife

Which package would you buy? I'm still pondering...and casting the net out as my inquiring mind would like to know anyone's thoughts.
???

Saturday, March 11, 2006

A Quickie Post

I'm not where I'm supposed to be. This is one of those times where one does not have a choice and it stinks. Short of being hospitalised or unconscious, there is no way out.

4 hours of listening to someone ramble on about his department is not at all my cup of tea on a Saturday morning. I should be in a horizontal position now...under my covers...dreaming the impossible dream.
Thankfully, someone decided to be a gentleman today :)

Thursday, March 09, 2006

Baby Talk

Years ago, I made a decision - I do not want to have children if and when I get married. No, it is not because I am worried about gaining the pounds. Althought there is a tinge of phobia, but that's manageable for there's always Marie France. Let's just say that I want my honeymoon period to last...for a long time to come.
The world will be our Oyster...
Call me selfish but once a child comes into your life, your entire world changes. Life and every aspect of it will be customised to suit a child's need and it won't be as flexible as before. However, don't get me wrong.The union of genes, the creation of a new being from two people in love is indeed beautiful and joyful. To some, a marriage is incomplete without a baby. I respect this view and I am asking, not telling anyone to in return, respect mine too. Why? Because my choice has caused uneasiness and someone felt offended. Maybe she misinterpreted but anyhow I would like to make things clear. There is a difference between asking and telling. When you ask, you want and expect a positive reaction. When you tell, there is no expectation of any reaction whatsoever. Therefore I am 'asking' in this sense. Respect MY views which are meant solely for my use and application as I respect yours and we will be better off.
Enough said. Full stop.
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Continuing on the same topic however, the words of someone a few days back in the midst of a heated discussion made me stop and pause for a moment.
"Maybe you will want to have children when you have everything and feel fulfilled with life..."
He certainly got me thinking there and I have come to a realisation that perhaps I will change my mind when I reach a state of contentment in my life. Right now I admit, I don't feel whole. There are many things that I want to do in this lifetime and I will strive to turn these dreams into reality. Becoming a mother is simply, just not included in the list. Perhaps I might long for the pitter patter of tiny feet in a future where I have achieved life satisfaction and hold everything my heart desires. Where I feel I am not constantly at war with myself and with the demons within, where I am at ease....peaceful...tranquil...calm...for I will not bring a child into this world if I can't give my all for no child deserves to be raised halfheartedly.

Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps...

It's a possibility. Never say never right? For those who do, ever so often end up swallowing their own words instead.

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

A, B, C or D?

The roles have changed and this is especially for you, BD :) Also tagged are the usual misfits – KG, WW, Cheyanne and FayFay.

Results? I am a Type B. First sentence simply confirms the accuracy of it.

Right smack in the middle of the week and I can’t wait for the weekend although I have a half day training session on Saturday. Simply B.O.L.L.O.C.K.S!!! Sniff :(
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What Type Are You?
What kind of season will you enjoy eating steamboat?
A. Winter ( To Qn 2)
B. Summer (To Qn 5)
C. No matter what season (To Qn 1)
1. Do you like to have some sauce on your food?
A. Like (To Qn 2)
B. Don't like (To Qn 5)
2. Will you add eggs in your steamboat soup?
A. Yes (To Qn 3)
B. No (To Qn 6)
3. If you find a cigarette butt in your steamboat food, what will you do?
A. Quarrel with the boss and request another new one. (To Qn 13)
B. Stop eating and just pay and go. (To Qn 10)
4. What is the main point you will consider for choosing a steamboat restaurant?
A. Famous ( To Qn 7)
B. Reasonable prices ( To Qn 8)
5. If the steamboat restaurant has a new product of steamboat, will you dare to try?
A. Yes ( To Qn 6)
B. No ( To Qn 8)
6. How many people do you like to have your steamboat meal with?
A. 2-3 soulmates ( To Qn 9)
B. A big group of friends ( To Qn 3)
7. If the steamboat restaurant is very crowded, will you wait for a seat or go to another place?
A. Wait ( To Qn 11)
B. Proceed to another one ( To Qn 12)
8. What kind of food you like to add?
A. Noodle ( To Qn 9)
B. Vermicilli "Tang hoon" ( To Qn 7)
9. Will you drink the soup first or finish all the ingredients in the bowl then drink the soup?
A. Drink the soup first ( To Qn 10)
B. Eat the ingredients first ( To Qn 12) ]
10. If the boss tells you that you must add some SPECIAL and ODD ingredient in the soup to make it more delicious, will you dare to add?
A. Yes ( To Qn 17)
B. No ( To Qn 13)
11. Will you drink a cup of cooling water after you finish this steamy hot meal?
A. Yes ( To Qn 15)
B. No ( To Qn 14)
12. When you're having your steamboat, do you put in your meat first or put in later?
A. Put it once the steamboat start ( To Qn 15)
B. Put it later ( To Qn 11)
13. Do you like to put all types of food put at one go into the steamboat or have it put in one type by one type?
A. All ( To Qn 17)
B. One type at a time ( To Qn 16)
14. What drink will you like to go with your meal?
A. Oolong Tea ( To Qn 16)
B. Plum juice ( Type A)
15. Do you like to have steamboat at home or outside?
A. Home ( To Qn 16)
B. Outside (To Qn 14)
16. Will you mind if another customer is standing behind you, waiting for you while you are finishing your food?
A. Mind ( Type B)
B. Don't mind ( Type C)
17. You are already very full with your meal but the boss offer to let you have another steamboat meal, will you eat it?
A. Yes (Type D)
B. No ( To Qn 16)
RESULTS...
TYPE A
Shy, a bit of an introvert. You are more stubborn and like to stay alone quietly at home. To you, talking to strangers is a hard thing so you have not much friends. But you will still have some soulmates. You need to treasure people who care and love you. You are more interested in your own matters, you will try your very best to achieve your target. But you can't do everything alone, and just depend on yourself, learn to open up and accept other opinions. Try to get along with different people.
TYPE B
You are a more active person, drawing a clear line between happiness and unhappiness. You are more quick-tempered. If you encounter things you like, you will do it without second thought. But once you encounter things that you hate, you will wish to get out of it as soon as possible. As you are a person of your own views, the friends you tend to have will be of the same pattern. But once good friends, you will understand them a lot and go all the way to help then. Friends are very dependent on you. As you are too emotional, you may make a storm out of a teacup with your friends. You must learn to do things in order and not give up easily. You can try making friends with those you don't think you can get along with, don't stick with the same category. This will make you more popular and charming.
TYPE C
Gentle like a lamb. You have a high level of adaptance power, easy to get along with people. Very popular in social life but seems that no one will talk bad about you. You hate to have conflicts with people so you always try to adapt to everyone. You treat every person differently. To look at the bright side, you adapt easily. But to look at the dark side, you lack of character, although you are one big nice guy but you lack of charm. On the surface, you have a lot of friends but once you have troubles, you lack of soulmates to help you around. You must try to express yourself more and be more decisive. In this way, you can
understand yourself more.
TYPE D
You are stubborn, like to go in circles and don't get to the point. Once you decide on something, no one can change your mind. You are a good leader in a group so you win a lot of trust from your friends. But as you are too persistent on your own thinking, you neglect other people's suggestions therefore you can easily make enemies. Although it is good to maintain your own character but it doesn't mean you totally ignore other people's thoughts and feelings. You will let people think you are hard to handle and you will lose friends gradually and may end up alone. You need to learn to accept other people's opinion. This will make your social circle bigger and you will understand yourself better.

I Love Women

Today, a friend who I've lost contact with called me out of the blues and asked me the infamous question, “What do you want in a Man?”. Remembered I had two postings last year that sprung up quite a debate and hence forth, I am going to republish a combination of the articles with my own words added.

This is for you A...my notion of the Ideal Man.

“A man who is striving for perfection in every aspect of life. A man who is striving for perfection mentally because I need conversation and mental stimulation. A man who is striving for perfection financially because I don’t need a financial burden. A man who is sensitive enough to understand what I go through as a woman, but strong enough to keep me grounded. A man who has patience and not pushing for a commitment I'm either unwilling to give or can't give at a point in time. A man who feels glad with my company just as much as I enjoy his. A man who is honest with me - my life has already been so full of negatives that I appreciate the positives - and honesty is one of them. A man who will allow me to be his friend - don't shut me out when trouble comes. I have a mind and ideas that may be useful - let me try to help. A man who will be my friend - listen to what I say - give me some feedback to show he’s listening to me - hug me when I'm down - kiss me when I hurt - hold me when I cry; be there holding my hand if I'm silent. It's sometimes just enough to know that he cares - and I'll do the same for him. A man whom I can respect. In order to be submissive, I must respect him. I cannot be submissive to a man who isn’t taking care of his business. I have no problem being submissive…he just has to be worthy. God made woman to be a help mate for man. I can’t help a man if he can’t help himself. And all in all, a man who loves me for me and who will never try and change me into someone I’m not for that was not who he fell in love with in the first place…”

Happy World Women's Day to all the ladies. Let's celebrate our independance, individualism and spirit as a woman in this day of age. Destiny's Child's 'Independant Women' is grooving in my head right now. Reckon it is the absolute choice for a theme song.

All the women who are independent, throw your hands up at me!

Oops, the pic may be a little backdated but it does serves its purpose. Besides, it's so UCB :)

Monday, March 06, 2006

Doggie Love

Hello to another week ahead. Waves of goodbye to last week.

There is one thing that I need to do this week in which I have been procrastinating and as I stand at the crossroad between not doing it and finally getting it over and done with, I have one thing to say…

“Amores Perros...”

Amores Perros (AP) directed by Alejandro Gonzalez Inarritu is a Mexican film that was nominated for a Best Foreign Film Oscar in 2001. Was reminded about it when a random discussion of the Best Picture winner this year (Crash) sprung up at work. Was rooting for Brokeback Mountain though. I admit it's a bious choice because of obvious reasons why, namely Mr Ang Lee. As I was saying, I thought of AP because it coincidentally runs on a similar theme with Crash. I forgot the title and in an attempt to, my inner CPU only managed to recall two things about it.

1. There were lots of dogs in it (Yes, woof, woof! Doggie year it is)
2. There was a horrific car accident and a model was paralysed

Some of us swear by Google but I have been Yahoo-fied since the beginning. I remember my first ever search was for Mariah Carey thanks to my uncle who opened up the envelope to the world of cyberspace for me. Gosh, how the woman has morphed.

I digressed.

What similar plot?
Everyone’s life is interwoven. At each intersection, the characters are faced with a choice and a decision, which will bring about the domino effect, affecting the lives of others that do/do not have a connection with them. For AP, the central force of this film is ultimately, Love. Love fuels, love drives all actions and emotions. I can't say for Crash but I reckon it is along the same line from the synopsis I have read. However, there is a racist touch to it with people from different racial and economical backgrounds colliding.

Sigh, love…can’t live with it…can’t live without it.

As Ashley sings, L-O, L-O, L-O, L-O-V-E…(Love this song! Its catchy and upbeat rhythm just makes me sing along everytime. I'm even thinking of saving it as one of my ringtones. Ha!)

I digressed again.

This fresh from my memory... another film to add to the list with an intertwining touch is also from the same director as AP - 21 Grams starring Naomi Watts and Sean Penn which was also nominated for an Oscar but for Best Picture.

There are times when we’ve got to do what we've got to do…

What is so true about these films is the real life, daily struggles impersonation is portrays. When we watch a film, we are merely spectators witnessing the stories of onscreen lives unfold to the finale. Sometimes however, a particular situation may be of one that we are experiencing and our emotions are heightened because we feel what the character feels. The end might leave us feeling worse, more encumbered but perhaps it could be the positive awakening of a realization. Making us braver to confront what we have been too cowardly to do or assist us in making a decision which we have been torturing, tormenting, tearing ourselves apart with.

Catch these films if you can but bear in mind that love is not depicted like sweet strawberry shortcake in AP and 21 Grams but an idealized bitter pill that leads to misery, brutality, resentment, coldness and pain. Shall grab the DVD for Crash soon to see if it is true to my predictions.

Life is simple, we make it complicated.
Life is simple, Love makes it complicated.
Amores Perros...Love's a Bitch.

Friday, March 03, 2006

50 Cent's Love Equation

"I love you like a fat kid love cake..."

Since I heard 50 Cents rap recently, I shall quote from one of his songs, 21 Questions which I heard this morning on the way to work. This line just tickles me. As corny as it sounds, he does have a point there doesn't he?

Yay, it’s Friday but Boo-Hoo :( cos’ I’ve gotta work tomorrow. Sigh…anyone kind enough to volunteer and be my chauffeur at 6am? Brownie points to be earned for future use. Ha!
P/S This is not a hint to someone :)

Thursday, March 02, 2006

F*@Ker's Fault

Silly Billy Lily me forgot to put the link to the quiz. I'm getting senile from venting.

http://www.okcupid.com/tests/take?testid=14457200288064322170

And there you have it.

Tagged Again...

There I was taking a break from work while calming myself down after my venting post by catching up on blogs I stalk religiously daily and what do u know? I got tagged by BD again. Hhmm, it seems to be an occurring phenomenon. Couldn’t slash ignore it, and this dear woman knows it. Sigh, I'm a sucker for quizzes. Just had to do it and the fact that my bloody office server has mood swings does not help. Nevertheless, it prevailed and there you have it, the results.

Advanced
You scored 78% Beginner, 100% Intermediate, 100% Advanced, and 73% Expert!

You have an extremely good understanding of beginner, intermediate, and advanced level commonly confused English words, getting at least 75% of each of these three levels' questions correct. This is an exceptional score. Remember, these are commonly confused English words, which means most people don't use them properly. You got an extremely respectable score.

You scored higher than 3% on Beginner
You scored higher than 39% on Intermediate
You scored higher than 73% on Advanced
You scored higher than 30% on Expert


My England also veli de powderful :P. Get well soon Lady BD. No worries, Maddox J. Pitt's homeland shall be awaiting your arrival :)

As usual, same old story I’m tagging KG, Wengster, Fay Fay and Cheyanne *chuckle*. The cycle continues.
P/S: For the 100% natural born F*%Ker - May baaa-ad baa-aad things happen to you. I rest my case.

!@#$^%&*(*&(*#$

Warning: Foul language ahead.

FUCK YOU WALKING PIECE OF USELESS SHIT, SLIMEBUCKET RUBBISH OF SOCIETY , FUNGUS INFECTED MUCUS, PEA BRAIN BASTARD, ASSHOLE SCUMBAG SON OF A WHORE!

YOU AND ALL OF YOUR KIND DESERVE TO HAVE EACH OF YOUR PATHETIC DANGLING DICKS CHOPPED OFF AND HUNG FROM A CEILING!
F.U.C.K. YOU!!!

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

Genetics of Time

"Time is genetic. Today is the child of yesterday and the parent of tomorrow. The work you produce today will create your future." Bruce Mau

Back from my wonderful and I must say, peaceful escapade. If only I could bottle up all the happiness I felt in a jar for keeps. Would certainly come in handy during WiSP (Wallowing in Self Pity) days. If only I could, I would with a pretty purple ribbon the shade of my future purple tulips.

Found this quote today while doing some research for work. Just goes to remind me again that life is a series of choices we make. Every decision creating an outcome that leads to more choices to be made and bringing forth more decisions thereafter.

My soul is tired and my heart is weak. What I’m trying to accept now...
Change is good, if you let it happen. If…
Every endless night has a dawning day. Every darkest sky has a shining ray.