My Mom is doing an Angie Jolie.

My car died on me this morning. Turned the ignition a few times and I didn't hear the usual roaring of the engine. Instead it was a murmur. And the alarm kept going off. Concluded it was time to change the battery. Luckily, my mom's car was available and coincidentally I was colour coordinated with it. Off white and black, and so was I :) She's away in Cambodia for 10 days trying to save the world on a mission trip.

I'm off to Pavilion soon. Company's sponsoring an Indy Jones movie screening for clients. Watched it last weekend and it was a disappointment in my opinion. Storyline got a little absurd for my own liking. Shall not insert spoilers for those who have not seen it. Can't wait to catch SATC though. It's listed on GSC's website in their July listings. However, I reckon it's gonna be heavily censored (what's the point of having movie classifications like 18SX if you censor?!). Will leave it to a DVD or my download king of a brother.

KT sent an email today: "What do you do when you're in the city of Love and it's pouring?" The woman caught SATC. How fabulous. Sigh. Have yet to step foot in Paris. Hopefully before I'm 10X3. This morning Birdy said, "SATC was worth more of my time and money than Indy Jones." If I didn't know better, I would think he's queer.

Gotta flutter off now. Thank God it's the weekend again. Dinner and dance is in store for tomorrow and it's gonna be good...

When it feels like the world is on your shoulders
and all of the madness has got you goin crazy

It's time to get out, step out into the street
Where all of the action is right there at your feet,
well..

I know a place where we can dance the whole night away
underneath the electric stars
Just come with me and we can shake your blues right away
You'll be doin fine once the music starts...Oh!

To the beat of the rhythm of the night
dance until the morning light
Forget about the worries on your mind
we can leave them all behind
To the beat of the rhythm of the night..
oohh the rhythm of the night...ooohh yeah

P/S BD, pls claim your birthday pressie from me soon. Else, it's gonna self destruct.

Yesterday...

... I vomitted twice, 5 minutes after dinner. Everything that went in, came out. My spinach, seafood tauhu, curry fish etc. Felt light as a feather after. The gag reflex never helps when I feel like throwing up, not once but this time it was automatic. Am still wondering what triggered it.

 

... I promised myself before I fell asleep on the couch, before the telly watched me instead of me watching it, that I am going to start saving up and invest. Which means less shoes, less bags, less pampering. However, the third thing I did yesterday definitely ain't contributing in my endeavour to fill up my piggy bank as...

 

... I purchased an Air Asia ticket to BKK and a return MAS ticket in total for RM445. Don't know why but it's cheaper to buy from separate airlines but thou shall not further question good things.

 

I don't know what's gonna happen next. But I do hope that something good will come along my way. Right now, I'm just living each day as it comes, trying my best to be optimistic and not sink into the depths of despair, of which I'm so capable of doing. I don't even wanna have a life plan because everything is just hanging by the moment. I'm simply holding on to whatever I can grasp... and ending each night with hope for a better tomorrow.

Wishing I was still in Bali...

By 30, you should have:

1

One old boyfriend you can imagine going back to and one who reminds you of how far you've come. (Done.)

2

A decent piece of furniture not previously owned by anyone else in your family. (My white framed bed which took me yonks to find)

 

3

Something perfect to wear if the employer or man of your dreams wants to see you in an hour. (Done. I've got enough dresses to impress the employer and more than enough LBDs in my closet for the man)

4

A purse, a suitcase and an umbrella you're not ashamed to be seen carrying. (Done. Done. Done.)

5

A youth you're content to move beyond. (I've lived my youth and have no regrets)

6

A past juicy enough that you're looking forward to retelling it in your old age. (Done. Complicatedness does have its juicy parts)

7

The realisation that you are actually going to have an old age—and some money set aside to help fund it. (I have realised and that's the first step, although I feel I'm going to hit the grave earlier than the normal life expectancy)

8

An e-mail address, a voice mailbox and a bank account—all of which nobody has access to but you. (4 email addresses, 1 voice mailbox, and 4 bank accounts with depleting funds)

9

A résumé that is not even the slightest bit padded. (What you read, is what you get)

10

One friend who always makes you laugh and one who lets you cry. (I have more than one, who can do both and that's a blessing)

11

A set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill and a black lace bra. (Gosh, no to the tools and 4 black lace bras)

12

Something ridiculously expensive that you bought for yourself, just because you deserve it. (Done. Many. A. Time. Retail therapy is the best therapy)

13

The belief that you deserve it. (Oh yes, because I'm worth it)

14

A skin-care regimen, an exercise routine and a plan for dealing with those few other facets of life that don't get better after 30. (skin care - done, exercise - sit-ups while watching the telly and walking up four flights of stairs everyday (that's routine to me), a plan - I'll deal with it when I get there)

15

A solid start on a satisfying career, a satisfying relationship and all those other facets of life that do get better. (career - neverending circus, relationship - WIP, other things -  I'll enjoy it when I get there)

 

By 30, you should know:

1

How to fall in love without losing yourself. (Learned that a long time ago)

2

How you feel about having kids. (I'm too selfish to be a mother. Until I learn to be much less, I ain't getting preggers)

3

How to quit a job, break up with a man and confront a friend without ruining the friendship. ( job - done, break up - done, friend - have lost, and have lost and found again)

4

When to try harder and when to walk away. (Done. The next thing to learn is letting go)

5

How to kiss in a way that communicates perfectly what you would and wouldn't like to happen next. (Done. Body language also helps)

6

The names of: the secretary of state, your great-grandmother and the best tailor in town. (I'm clueless to the first two and Ah Lok Tailor at the Asian Heritage Row is the only tailor I know)

7

How to live alone, even if you don't like to. (Have never lived alone although I reckon I would know how but not like it as I can only be alone for a certain period of time)

8

How to take control of your own birthday. (Done. I look forward and plan for it every year even if it is to do nothing)

9

That you can't change the length of your calves, the width of your hips or the nature of your parents. (I whine all the time about my boobs, tummy and legs but I've come to accept the good parts of my body like....... your parents will always be your parents so.......)

10

That your childhood may not have been perfect, but it's over. (I had a wonderful childhood)

11

What you would and wouldn't do for money or love. (Done. A girl has got to know what she's worth when it comes to both)

 

12

That nobody gets away with smoking, drinking, doing drugs or not flossing for very long. (smoking - WIP, drugs - never and not even tempted to try, drinking - only on my birthday plus that one time at Sky Bar, flossing - dreadful trip to the dentist every 6 months)

13

Who you can trust, who you can't and why you shouldn't take it personally. (Done. Have learned all three the hard way)

14

Not to apologize for something that isn't your fault. (It's degrading to one self and I'll only do it if I really really really must)

15

Why they say life begins at 30. (I'm not there yet but am hoping to be whole again, content with myself and with life and a happy all rounder when I do)

 

This list was written by Pamela Redmond Satran when she passed her 30th birthday and wanted to tell younger women about the things she really wished she had and known by the important milestone. BD, you're tagged. Today feels like a Monday today for me. Withdrawal symptoms from an extended weekend that was unforgettable... I say this everytime and I'll say it again - I need a holiday after a holiday. Don't we all usually do? To recuperate from a holiday and prepare ourselves to go back to the grind. Well, a comforting thought is at least it's already the middle of the week and the weekend is just around the corner.

 

*grind grind grind*

Press Pause

What can I say, it's Friday, it's a long weekend, an extended one for me (and for others as well I reckon) and it's gonna be simply and mystically blissful. Heaven on earth...

 

My worries and anxieties, problems and aggravations are gonna take a hike. Take a back seat. I'm chucking them away in the corner. Sweeping them under the rug. Gonna slash ignore. Press 'pause'. Am not letting them affect me and bring me down. Refuse to be my own party pooper. Not this weekend.

 

Like it or not, this is the way it's gonna be. Sometimes we need a break to keep ourselves together. To keep our sanity intact.

Ain't it great when you've got reasons to smile and none to frown?

 

Happy holidays people :)

I'm lovin' this song. *sniff*

A strangled smile fell from your face
It kills me that I hurt you this way
The worst part is that I didn't even know
Now there's a million reasons for you to go
But if you can find a reason to stay

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
Believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes

She said "If we're gonna make this work
You gotta let me inside even though it hurts
Don't hide the broken parts that I need to see"
She said "Like it or not it's the way it's gotta be
You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me"

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
And give me a break
I'll keep us together, I know you deserve much better

But remember the time I told you the way that I felt
That I'd be lost without you and never find myself
Let's hold onto each other above everything else
Start over, start over

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
and believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes

 

- 'Whatever It Takes' by Lifehouse

Cure for Monday Blues.

This was totally hilarious. Tickled me so...

Thanks BD. You made me LOL and I really needed a dose of laughter. What with the neverending circus, refusing to leave town.

Hence, not only am I sharing it with everyone in the office, I'm sharing it with the world.

 

If you can't open the link, go to www.hallmark.com and search for the 'It's Monday' e-card by Hoops and Yoyo. Trust me, it's worth it :) *chuckle*

I'm only happy when it rains...

I've got a splitting headache now after a heavy lunch with cupcakes for dessert.

 

Just wanna curl up in bed and sleep the afternoon away. Better still if it rains heavily while I'm in dreamland.

 

I hate Mondays. What a drag. 4 more days to the weekend. And we've only just begun.

 

Sometimes you've just gotta let it ride,

Through the change that's happening right before your eyes...

Aggravation Free Zone

Il bel far niente... the beauty of doing nothing...

 

This is exactly what I'm gonna do in my next escapade. Relish in the beauty of doing nothing. Well, not exactly nothing if you know what I mean. But everything I do will be according to my own pace and rhythm. No rushing, no hastening, no hurrying with the main objective of resting, rejuvenating and relaxing. Where I shall try and grasp the beauty of self indulging in time at my disposal, like the Italians do according to Elizabeth Gilbert, who travelled across Italy, India and Indonesia after a messy divorce in search of answers.

 

I could deal with doing nothing.

I could manage with doing nothing.

I could certainly live with doing nothing for a few days.

 

Currently reading her bestseller titled 'Eat, Pray, Love' that chronicles her journeys and so far very good I'd say. Hey, if a book can make you smile, chuckle and lift your spirits, it's worth every dollar and cent you invested in it. I recommend it to anyone who has come to a halt in their life, where the pain of staying in the status quo has grown to be stronger than getting out of it and making a change.

Waiting on a Change.

There are some days when you wanna slash ignore everything and turn a blind eye against all the aggravation the world is firing at your face with full force.

 

Today is one of them days.

 

"Law of attraction dear, think positive and all the good things will come..." said KT.

 

I am trying to babe. Wishing and hoping on the 50% chance I have in my grasp of securing favourable news. It's just not that easy for a natural born pessimist. The vibes tend to be fundamentally negative.

 

This week feels like the longest week ever.