Mr. Nice Guy & Ms. Scrooge

"You should smile more, you're prettier when you do :)"
"What's there to smile about? I only smile when I'm happy :( "

According to the age-character calculation...

She
* Loyal and generous
* Patriotic
* Active in games and interactions
* Impatient and hasty
* Ambitious
* Influential in organizations
* Fun to be with
* Loves to socialize
* Loves praises
* Loves attention
* Loves to be loved
* Honest and trustworthy
* Not pretending
* Short tempered
* Changing personality
* Not egoistic
* Takes high pride in oneself
* Hates restrictions
* Loves to joke
* Good sense of humor
* Logic

He
* Active and dynamic
* Decisive and hateful but tends to regret
* Attractive and affectionate to oneself
* Strong mentality
* Loves attention
* Diplomatic
* Consoling
* Friendly and solves people's problems
* Brave and fearless
* Adventurous
* Loving and caring
* Suave and generous
* Emotional
* Revengeful
* Aggressive
* Hasty
* Good memory
* Moving
* Motivate oneself and the others
* Sickness usually of the head and chest
* Easily get too jealous

Do opposites attract, or is it a recipe for disaster?

Transform Your Life with Love

How aptly titled and illustrated, I thought.

:(

An offer that I can't refuse is hanging by a thin thread all because I can't be at the right place at the right time.

Therefore, I might have to decline to pursue. The heart is indeed feeling very heavy. I see myself drowning in the depths of despair soon. *tick, tock, tick, tock* I'm struggling for air already as of currently.

Hopefully something good comes along again, in the near future.
After all, what's meant to be will be... and it is said that when one door of opportunity closes, another will open, right? (this is my self pacification).
Either you have it or you don't.
Either you grab it or somebody else will.
Either you stay, hoping for the best or leave and take the risk.

Space...

It has been one of those weekends where I've tracked below the social radar like a human hermit. I reckon it's good for the being. Time away from the outside world feeds the soul with more comprehension of one self. You're able to examine and recap what life has unfolded from the past to the present.

Enjoyed my monthly 2 hour facial and a hair treatment today. Signed up for a facial stint endorsed by the Material Mom herself in two weeks time as one of my many birthday gifts to myself. In addition, I've managed to spring clean my room and catched up with the Housewives, Meredith and her housemates, the Heroes and Betty. Plus, I've also finally watched 'The Pursuit of Happyness'. Yes, finally.

"It was right then that I started thinking about Thomas Jefferson on the Declaration of Independence and the part about our right to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. And I remember thinking how did he know to put the pursuit part in there? That maybe happiness is something that we can only pursue and maybe we can actually never have it. No matter what. How did he know that?"

This answers the question as to why Master Fortune Teller said that I'll only be happy when I'm 55. For I'll spend two-thirds of my life pursuing it. But even then I'll be living on borrowed laughters and smiles. For if Jefferson's right, we might never own happiness. It is something we will keep on chasing. Like a dog with its tail...

Coffee anyone?

First email that was waiting for me this morning was a forwarded story from KT. How appropriate, I told myself.

*****
"The happiest people in the world are not those who have no problems, but those who learn to live with things that are less than perfect..."

* A group of graduates, highly established in their careers, got together to visit their old university professor. Conversation soon turned into complaints about stress in work and life.

* Offering his guests coffee, the professor went to the kitchen and returned with a large pot of coffee and an assortment of cups - porcelain, plastic, glass, crystal, some plain looking, some expensive, some exquisite - telling them to help themselves to the coffee.

* When all the students had a cup of coffee, the professor said: "If you noticed, all the nice looking expensive cups were taken up, leaving behind the simple and cheap ones.

* While it is normal for you to want only the best for yourselves, that is the source of your problems and stress. Be assured that the cup itself adds no quality to the coffee.

* In most cases, it is just more expensive and in some cases even hides what we drink.

* What all of you really wanted was coffee, not the cup, but you consciously went for the best cups... Then you began eyeing each other's cups.

* Now consider this:
- Life is the coffee; the jobs, money and position in society are the cups.
- They are just tools to hold and contain Life, and the type of cup we have does not define, nor change the quality of Life we live.
- Sometimes, by concentrating on the cup, we fail to enjoy the coffee.

"The happiest people don't have the best of everything. They just make the best of everything..."

1. Live simply. 2. Love generously.

3. Care deeply. 4. Speak kindly.

5. Leave the rest to The All Mighty.

Life either shines a light OR casts a shadow!
*****

It's natural to want things, but we should want it moderately and keep it within our scope of means. The art of being simple. Sigh. Difficult to instill in a perfectionist like me, much less master it. In someone who strives and wants so much in life that it drowns the essence of living sometimes. My benchmark? I'll be proud of myself when I'm achieved more than what my parents have.

Be careful what you wish for, you might just get it. 'Might' is the word here... A certain hope was revived yesterday after the 'fabulous' morning I had. Everything moved rather quickly and I'll know within the next few days. If I'm served with positive news, will have to make a decision pretty soon. Perhaps I shall seek divine intervention to be sure. Come to think of it, I will seek it. Because, how do you let go of something that you've grown to like through trials and tribulations? Do you just take a leap of faith? Enough said for now on this for I do not want to to jinx it.

The force has not been with me of late. Nevertheless, I am a happier person today.

Let's see how long this lasts.

Somebody up there said I have mental problems

This morning, I disappointed myself by apologising for something that was no fault of mine just to shut him up. Called me into his room to blast me about one thing, a SINGLE thing and he ended up putting the entire universe on my shoulder. And in the process, I was deemed mentally unfit. I hate being thrown right smack in the middle and being a pawn in somebody's power struggle. Simply resent it. The last time I checked, I am not filled up with sand and I'm not rounded to be punched. I don't like to admit it but I'm underweight for goodness sake. Don't make me the target.

As a result, I am craving to buy something. Especially shoes. I need retail therapy. Desperately. I need to make myself feel better. I need, I need to reward myself. Ended up surfing fashion sites online for a 'quick click of a fix' and Aldo's new ballerina shoes in royal purple was calling out to me. Was about to submit my order when darn oh darn, I realised my size was not available. It was even on sale. Sigh. Just my luck.

This blog is turning out to be a 'vent about work aggravation' blog but this is my blog, this is the space I've created for myself and I'll post whatever I want, provided I'm not at risk of being arrested for it.

Respect is to be earned. Regardless of superiority.

So what if I'm crazy?! At least I still have a backbone.

Go ahead, surprise me. Tell me something that I have not known for years.

Sometimes I wonder why I have faith in people...

Giving certain people the benefit of the doubt has hiked up my aggravation cost considerably. CONSIDERABLY. I am officially drained. Body battery needs to be recharged. Feeling totally exhausted. And boy oh boy am I phased out.

Have two getaways planned in the next two months and I can't wait to pack my bags and flee the country for some rest and relax, peace and quiet. Where I won't be hoarded by emails, most of which I have to reply nastily to. Where I won't be bothered by people who should know better. WHO SHOULD KNOW BETTER. Where I can do everything and nothing at all at my own leisure. *tra-la-la-la-la... dum-dee-dee-doo-dum-dum*

My 'midget' aka colleague told me, "I think you should check your blood pressure. You've been angry for days...". My boss even offered to buy me weed to calm me down.

Selfishly, sometimes I wish I could change people for the betterment of myself but I guess that's too much to ask for. We can only try and manage them while revising our expectations.

I feel like abandoning ship and heading straight to The Pavilion, which is just around two corners away and splurge myself silly. This will be of course, at MY own expense as well.

Decided that I'm mentally broke enough already. Shall differ investing in the 'ringgit' sense for the weekend instead. I'm heading out for a press event as an alternative escape and try to seize the opportunity at driving a Ferrari.

This girl's done for the day. So done indeed.

Have you gone for a test drive lately?

Addison: "What are you doing?"
Pete: "I'm going to kiss you. I'm going to kiss you with tongue. I'm going to kiss you so you feel it. Okay?"
Addison: "Okay."

Why can't some guys come up with witty lines like Pete?

Learn from reel life and apply in real life.

It works you know. Well, in my opinion it will provided two are attracted to each other and there are sparks in the mix. A kiss can explain everything between two people. It can open up spectrums of possibilities. That's why it is more expensive to kiss a prostitute than to 'do' her. Because a kiss can magically weave strings of attachment after. I mean, how often have we heard of a two people with bad kissing chemistry actually becoming a couple and if they do, did it last?

Likewise, will you marry someone you absolutely adore, who's the reason your sky is blue but with whom you have zero sexual compatibility with? Can Love prevail over sexual satisfaction? Have asked this question many a times to people from different age groups. A majority of those below 25 years of age, of which most are die-hard romantic idealists, said they will endure this shortcoming in their relationship as it's shallow to forego someone who might in fact be the love of your life over bad sex. But then again doesn't Love include the sex bit as well? Not saying that it should be earth shattering but there should at least be some tremors right?

On the other hand, the consensus for the above 25s was an ultimate no. At the end of the day, this group agreed that what happens behind closed doors inevitably plays an important part in any relationship. Some even said that it will lead to either person going astray sooner or later and this claim was proven by real life examples that were shared. If someone can't rock your bed, they won't rock your world. And if the person is indeed The One, the whole package should be complete. Sex and all.

Truth of the matter, when it comes to relationships (of kissing and sex) today, as crude as it may sound, it's like buying a car. You have to go for a test drive before you commit yourself to it.

My piece of 'Royal Assets' from M.A.C.

'Cool Eyes' was specially flown in! *flutter flutter*

The case and its colours... something that The SnowQueen will carry and use huh?

This is what I call icy-uber-coolness. I'm lovin' it :)

Breathing for Life & Love

How did I get so complex?

Sometimes my heart aches inside my chest. 

There is a place I used to be in.

A happy picture from way back then. 

All I can do is keep breathing... again and again.

 

Everything is hanging in the air until one thing happens. If it happens, it will be a sign. The start of good things to come. The beginning of a new chapter in Life and Love. Until it does, everything will seem weightless.

Frustrated Incorporated

If this is the way it's going to be and it's been this way for the longest time...

I am putting my foot down. Period.

Everything I've worked hard for throughout this year is on the line, my head is on the platter and I'm not going to walk the plank with you if the time should come.

Being nice sincerely didn't work. Being nasty didn't either. So what other corresponding emotions do I have to slap onto my face with what I feel to make you understand the seriousness of the issues at hand?!

Sigh. Don't wanna think about it. Don't wanna talk about it. I'm just so sick about it.

'Lantak' la as I've learned to say. But I'm not gonna go down with you. I simply am not. And I'm gonna make sure I don't. I'm gonna do whatever that is necessary within my means and more if I have to, to save my own ass.

There's a time for everything and it's time to be selfish. Indeed, it's time.