:(

An offer that I can't refuse is hanging by a thin thread all because I can't be at the right place at the right time.

Therefore, I might have to decline to pursue. The heart is indeed feeling very heavy. I see myself drowning in the depths of despair soon. *tick, tock, tick, tock* I'm struggling for air already as of currently.

Hopefully something good comes along again, in the near future.
After all, what's meant to be will be... and it is said that when one door of opportunity closes, another will open, right? (this is my self pacification).
Either you have it or you don't.
Either you grab it or somebody else will.
Either you stay, hoping for the best or leave and take the risk.