Sayonara '07

It has been ggggrrrreat last week of '07. Fabulosity as Kimora says.

Shopping overload (reserved my first pair of Christian Louboutin), partying (like I was 18 again), hanging out with old friends (whom I've known since I was 13), making new friends (most of which are in the moolah line as well) and spending time with the feathered one (who has been feeding and accomodating me wonderfully for almost a week). Thank you Birdy:)

Am not my usual restless self because I've been out of the country. Feel liberated, free as a butterfly fluttering. Plans for the night festivities have been confirmed and Red Satin hangs by the cupboard railing waiting to be worn. It's gonna be dinner at Hog's Breath and party time at Butter Factory after. Then it's back home tomorrow afternoon *sniff*. Followed by Sawadeekap Bangkok on the 4th. *wii!!!*

I've said goodbye to many things this year. Things which can no longer fit in my life. It was time to let go because the pain of staying became greater then the pain of leaving. Come what '08 brings, I know I will be stronger in facing it for I've been blessed with Love and I have learned from it through tears, hurt and pain. Smile, shine again and shine on. And accept that there are some things in life you cannot change, no matter how much you endeavour to. *breathe*. Just smile, shine again and shine on...

I say this every new year and I'll say it again.

May the coming year bring new ways and means to achieve your hopes and dreams.

Happy New Year everyone. Let the good times roll...

12 more days to go

2008 is just around the corner...

I have posted this 'I learned' list before but it's time for a reflection, for this list will remain forever young.

 

- I have learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.

- I have learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back.

- I have learned that you can do something in an instant that will give you a heartache for life.

- I have learned that no matter how thin you slice it, there are always two sides.

- I have learned that it takes a long time to become the person I want to be.

- I have learned that you can keep going on long after you thought you could not.

- I have learned that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

- I have learned that either you control your attitude or it controls you.

- I have learned that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place.

- I have learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

- I have learned that learning to forgive takes practice.

- I have learned that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.

- I have learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

- I have learned that people you aren't related to can take care of you and love you and teach you to trust people again.

- I have learned that no matter how good a friend someone is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

- I have learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

- I have learned that our backgrounds and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.

- I have learned that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.

- I have learned that we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.

- I have learned that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.

- I have learned that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.

- I have learned that there are many ways of falling and staying in love.

- I have learned that many things can be powered by the mind, the trick is self-control.

- I have learned that it is hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people's feelings and standing up for what you believe.

- I have learned that no matter how fast and how far you go, you can't outrun God.

 

And in times when you should feel most alone, there will always, always be someone who understands what you're going through. Thank you God... for being by my side even when I don't look for you in prayer as often as I should.

Pre-23

Last night was surreal...

 

Purple and black balloons enough to fill my entire boot, room and office space.

Diamante star fairy wand to 'bless' people with.

Perfect purple dress with a black ribbon to wear for Christmas.

 

Have never felt the negative notion about turning older and I think (until I stand corrected by myself) I won't be experiencing it for a long time to come even though the big 30 is approaching soon. Birthdays are meant to be celebrated. For it's not just another day...

 

I simply love the merry month of December for the obvious reason why. And the fact that Christmas is tagged in it makes everything more wonderful and I reckon I'm not the only one who feels this way. Don't wanna sound bias but in my opinion Christmas decorations in malls are the loveliest compared to other festive seasons. And the carols/jingles/songs played adds to the whole euphoria and one can't help but sing or hum along while shopping. 

 

Chestnuts roasting on an open fire, 
Jack Frost nipping on your nose, 
Yuletide carols being sung by a choir, 
And folks dressed up like Eskimos. 

Everybody knows a turkey and some mistletoe, 
Help to make the season bright. 
Tiny tots with their eyes all aglow, 
Will find it hard to sleep tonight. 

They know that Santa's on his way; 
He's loaded lots of toys and goodies on his sleigh. 
And every mother's child is going to spy, 
To see if reindeer really know how to fly. 

And so I'm offering this simple phrase, 
To kids from one to ninety-two, 
Although its been said many times, many ways, 
A very Merry Christmas to you...

 

Talking about shopping. Shame on me. Did not manage to conquer my list over the weekend. I still have 7 names left to cross out on my gift list and it struck me today that Christmas is next Tuesday! Gosh.

 

Must. Be. Done. With. List. Die-die. By. Tomorrow. Latest.

Love, Lost, Fuck, Rinse & Repeat

When I think that its over, that I'll never see him again like this… well yes, I'll bump into him, we'll meet our new boyfriend and girlfriend, act as if we had never been together, then we'll slowly think of each other less and less until we forget each other completely. Almost. Always the same for me. Break up, break down. Drunk up, fool around. Meet one guy, then another, fuck around. Forget the one and only. Then after a few months of total emptiness start again to look for true love, desperately look everywhere and after two years of loneliness meet a new love and swear it is the one, until that one is gone as well.

There's a moment in life where you can't recover any more from another break-up. And even if this person bugs you sixty percent of the time, well you still can't live without him. And even if he wakes you up every day by sneezing right in your face, well you love his sneezes more than anyone else's kisses.

My definition of the circle of love is thus - love, lost, fuck around, rinse, repeat.

 

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Got this from a blog, was tickled and hence the sharing.

Come to think about it, the pursuit of love is a vicious cycle of repetitions. And the number of times each person rewinds the cycle depends on individual. Until we find the right one who makes all the reverse efforts worth it, where there's no need to press the 'repeat' button anymore. And it's just 'play' all the way...

 

Felt like Julia Roberts in Pretty Woman during my quick weekend escapade over the causeway. I'm still feeling like her today. And it's all because of You... *proo proo*

 

See you in 9 days time ;)

All Systems Go

Yesterday felt just like it should.

 

Satisfaction.

When an extremely important meeting goes smoothly without any hiccups whatsoever. It was seamless.

Happiness.

When you're dining with you colleagues after and laughing over the stupidity that happens at work until tears roll down your eyes and your tummy aches.

Anticipation.

Wonderfully planned itinerary for team building in Bangkok emailed for your approval and all you're required to do according to it is have fun while someone else coordinates.

 

May there be more days like this to come. 

Tis' the Season to Shop, Shop, Shop!

'It's all about you...'

10 hours at The Gardens (love the retail outlets, love the ambience, love the tagline) on Saturday and I grabbed 10 things.

- Christmas presents for brother and 5 cousins

- black satin puffy jacket from Future State

- black rhinestone dress from Future State

- black satin ribbon pumps from NineWest

- black worktop from Promod

Yup. 100% black. I always seem to go back to black. My classic contemporary approach to fashion is a die-hard taste.

This weekend, I'll be invading the streets of Orchard and Bugis in my attempt to cross off the remaining 11 names in my Christmas gift list and to reward myself as well. It's no excuse and believe me when I say that we have to love ourselves that little bit more during our birthday month for it brings good luck for the next 364 days till the next birthday comes. Seriously.

Hello again, Lion City. I have missed you since my triple visits last year. This will be my first for 2007. Oops, and I will be seeing you again after Christmas! What's more next month, there'll be more rewarding in Sawadeekap Bangkok. Will be a virgin trip for me(yeah numero uno, unbelievable huh?!) and the best part is, flight and accomodation? Fully sponsored:). Finally, after hearing so much from so many people about their unforgettable shopping experiences, I am getting my passport stamped there.

Can't wait to travel but I'm so gonna welcome 2008... BROKE.

Let the shopping begin...

Shiloh's Mommy

Simply gorgeous...

I'm as straight as a snooker cue but she's the only woman I'll seriously consider being a sapphist for.

Blood

Ever since I saw the painting of 'Rose' on Miami Ink, I have been a fan of Mark Ryden's work. Especially the 'Blood' collection in which Rose and her friends here are a part of.

Am drawn by the melancholic beauty of his art, which I find intriguing, moving and soothing.

Speechless. Well, almost.

The only thing left for me to say is just this.

I pray that someday, someone will find a cure for stupidity.