Flaws and All

I'm a train wreck in the morning
I'm a bitch in the afternoon
Every now and then without warning
I can be really mean towards you
I'm a puzzle yes indeed
Ever-complex in every way
And all the pieces aren't even in the box
And yet, you see the picture clear as day

I don't know why you love me
And that's why I love you
You catch me when I fall
Accept me flaws and all
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love

I neglect you when I'm working
When I need attention
I tend to nag
I'm a host of imperfection
And you see past all that
I'm a peasant by some standards
But in your eyes I'm a queen
You see potential in all my flaws
And that's exactly what I mean

I don't know why you love me
And that's why I love you
You catch me when I fall
Accept me flaws and all
And that's why I love you

You know someone truly loves you for real and accepts you just the way you are, flaws and all when you are holding their heart in the palm of your hands and in their eyes, you are perfectly flawed.

I Need a Four Leaf Clover...

Met with a minor accident on Friday. Cost me RM480.80. The service advisor was kind enough to waive the workmanship charges and only billed me for a broken side light. Yes, almost 500 bucks for a side light. The cost for going ori. Sigh. While on the way to the service centre, I narrowly escaped a collision with a Metrobus by an inch. Was too close for comfort. Too close. I reckon my heart stopped beating. I was dead for that few seconds in time.

And yesterday, I tripped on paperbags. Twice! At the same crime scene. Cost me a few bruises and a scraped left knee. Sigh. The amount of times I've fallen on this knee. One day it's just gonna disintegrate while I'm walking. Another reason to not wear dresses or skirts. Or anything knee revealing.

*silent victory cries*

The Powers of Divinity decided to have pity on me. I'm going for 'Back to Basics' this weekend. I'm not really a huge fan, but I need to travel. I need a holiday and I'll settle for a brisk trip. A place where the mobile service providers are not Maxis, Celcom or Digi. And although I won't be paying a single cent for the ticket including accommodation and transportation, the trip's gonna cost me XXX amount of dollars. In this sense, I'm clairvoyant. It's a given. Because resistance is futile when it comes to the GSS. It will be a retail sin if I don't step foot on the Orchard. Damage to the depleting bank account is expected. Just a matter of how many zeros are swiped.

So, why even try right? A girl who's down on her luck has got to love herself. 4 more days and counting :)

"Excuses! Excuses!", shouts the faint echo that is my conscience.

I hate clowns ever since watching Stephen King's 'IT'.

The circus is in town this week with its eccentric characters, serving different ring masters.

Need an escape route. Somebody kidnap me. Whisk me away. Far, far away to Never-Never Land. Sigh, like it's possible at this point in time. Even if I were given wings to Paris. The stage is already set. And I'm tied to the chains that bind me workwise.

All the world is a stage,
And all the men and women merely players.
They have their exits and entrances; each man in his time plays many parts.

Clowns are magni-freaks. And I'm the dancing monkey.

My Tracks

Never a day goes by

Without something stopping me hard in my tracks

I could be happy and I'll never know it

Till never a day comes back...

Playing Judge

It irks me when people play the judging game. It simply irks me because these are the ones who have no business whatsoever in doing so.

The mechanics of our relationships changes as life passes by. With our partner, with our family, with our friends. Friends grow apart, lovers go astray. People will come and go, whereas some will stay for the long haul. This is just the way of life. And life is a journey. A journey of discovering who we are, who we want to be and where we want to be. Until the three seamlessly merge, there will be shifts in our focus inevitably. Our priorities will change every now and then. For good, for bad, happy or sad.

Sometimes, we have to see and acknowledge this fact not only for ourselves but for others as well. The word here is empathy. I'm not even talking in a sympathetic sense. But that we should at least, spare an ounce of consideration and respect for one another. After all, aren't we breathing the same air? Don't we go through similar phases in life? Aren't we all learning from our mistakes as we go along? At the end of the day, isn't our lives ours to live?

I hold no grudges. I honestly don't. Because people can be blatantly ignorant and clueless to the big picture of a situation. I will place no blame or discrimination onto them. We're only human and we have our flaws. I understand. Sincerely I do. I can and will sweep it under the rug. But there's no denying that it affects me, when it shouldn't. This is why I prefer to keep my emotions private and sit beside myself when it boils down to certain things as more often than not, some people fail to realise the picture painted by their canvas of words.

And this picture is that we often hold people to a standard that we ourselves don’t keep.

A friend once said to me, “I may not understand what you’re doing. I may not agree but I am here for you, for that’s what friends are for”.

Through thick or thin, right or wrong. The world could certainly do with more bosom souls like hers. But who am I to ask for more? For I'm the one standing trial here.