Goodbye Rest Hello Stress

Tomorrow's the 1st day of a new month and as I embark on a new journey in my career. I pray for the strength to learn to accept the jam for what it is, simply a delay, a bottleneck in the flow of traffic, an interference, uneven movements which causes more steps on the brakes, more burning of petrol, more sitting on my ass, more testing of patience, for ultimately I will reach my destination. All said, it's just a matter of time...

Guess when you know there's nothing you can do in your power to change something (in this case me banishing into oblivion all jams), you have to learn to accept it and deal with it. I admit, I've been so 'spoiled' in my almost 3 years of working. Been having the comfort of leaving for work after the traffic subsides. Gotten used to getting late shut eyes because I've the luxury to. And the thing is I love sleeping late, love it in the still of the night where everything is quieter, no hustle and bustle, where you can hear yourself. Quality time with me, myself and I is what I call it unless you're cohabitating or married where the probability is either you'll be all over each other or sleeping soundly in sweet surrender together.

Gosh, I'm sounding so melancholy. So ungrateful huh? Whining away. Well, don't get me wrong I am happy that I've been given the opportunity in a position that will bear fruit if I sow the seeds wisely and I will certainly do my best. It's the ways of the traffic that I am not looking forward to facing everyday. Similarly, take this situation for an example. You're introduced to someone for the first time and immediately you know that the both of you won't be the best of friends, friends for that matter. Will be like the I-know- you exist-you -know- I -exist- but -that- is- all kind of relationship. They irritate and bother you even when they say nothing. No sharing and caring. No gossiping and planning to have your kids bethrothed at birth because you're so close you wanna be related some day. Somehow the frequency is different, you and him/her will always be singing out of tune, and you will try to avoid crossing paths but when that happens, you have to manage the situation and be tolerant - an active volcano waiting to erupt. In the jam scenario, the eruption will happen when I resort to the extreme measure of quitting for somewhere nearer.

Gosh, I'm raining on my own parade. Dropping the bomb on myself. How sad is this?! Well, I did celebrate and had some fun over the weekend. Got a little tipsy too. Sigh, it's all about getting used to isn't it? Simple...I merely have to sleep earlier, wake up earlier, leave home earlier....bring forward things I used to take my own sweet time doing.

What could be harder than that?!

Lotsa things I know. And there I have it. I will be thankful for there are worst things in life than being stuck in jam everyday. Like being jobless, emptying my bank account, having no money to pay my bills and to shop, shop, shop! Narcissism is necessary sometimes. Right said. Good on myself. *Self pacifying mode activated*

Shall head for some hair pampering aka treatment now and look forward to the first day of the rest of my working life with soft, shiny manageable hair :). At least this is one of the things I can control. Hhmm, however it's not done with my own hands but left to an expert. Does that count as something I can control then? I shall leave it at this. No more complains for the last day of July, 2005.

Have a good Monday and a great week ahead everyone :).