Of Shoes, God & Me

We all have needs, wants and desires.
Sometimes we tend to look at others and can't help but wish we were in their shoes. They seem to have everything going for them - love, family, career, friends and health. But then again, someone else might be observing us from a different angle and wishing they were in our shoes instead.

It's a world of gazing at each other's shoes.

"How nice it would be to walk in her comfy flats than in these 4-inch murderer of feet stilettos."

"I long to be walking high in that 4-inch sexy stiletto than feel the ground beneath my feet in these unglamorous flats."

How do we know then, when how much is too much? Too much too soon. Too much to ask. Too much to give. Too much to bear. Too much to hope for.

Sometimes all we want, is more, and nothing else. But then again, more isn't always better.

There are times when all seems wrong, not right or not the right fit. Why?

One, the world is never perfect according to what we want it to be.

Two, we are just human, we change, we grow, we make mistakes, we feel, we are constantly being exactly that... human.

Three, as people we try to be so many things to so many other people. We want to be a perfect daughter, a filial son, an understanding friend, a good partner, an excellent employee... but reality is far from this, we can only be what we choose to be at any given time, and even this we fail at times.

I'm drowning in my thoughts and they can't seem to surface. Like a sponge that can't leak. And this is all I can squeeze out.

Found the article below and thought it was a good read that provided answers. Now if only I can somehow swallow the words, digest its meaning and absorb it into my brains permanently till my last breath.

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God : Hello. Did you call me?
Me : Called you? No...who is this?
God : This is GOD. I heard your prayers. So I thought I will chat.
Me : I do pray. Just makes me feel good. I am actually busy now. I am in the midst of something..
God : What are you busy at? Ants are busy too.
Me : Don't know. But I cant find free time. Life has become hectic. It's rush hour all the time.
God : Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you results. Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it.
Me : I understand. But I still cant figure out. By the way, I was not expecting YOU to buzz me on instant messaging chat.
God : Well I wanted to resolve your fight for time, by giving you some clarity. In this net era, I wanted to reach you through the medium you are comfortable with.
Me : Tell me, why has life become complicated now?
God : Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated.
Me : Why are we then constantly unhappy?
God : Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday. You are worrying because you are analyzing. Worrying has become your habit. That's why you are not happy.
Me : But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?
God : Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional.
Me : But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty.
God : Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.
Me : If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?
God : Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don't suffer. With that experience their life become better not bitter.
Me : You mean to say such experience is useful?
God : Yes. In every terms, experience is a hard teacher. She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.
Me : But still, why should we go through such tests? Why cant we be free from problems?
God : Problems are Purposeful Roadblocks Offering Beneficial Lessons (to) Enhance Mental Strength. Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance, not when you are free from problems.
Me : Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don't know where we are heading..
God : If you look outside you will not know where you are heading. Look inside. Looking outside, you dream. Looking inside, you awaken. Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight.
Me : Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving in the right direction. What should I do?
God : Success is a measure as decided by others. Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you rode ahead. You work with the compass. Let others work with the clock.
Me : In tough times, how do you stay motivated?
God : Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you have to go. Always count your blessing, not what you are missing.
Me : What surprises you about people?
God : When they suffer they ask, "why me?" When they prosper, they never ask "Why me" Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but few want to be on the side of the truth.
Me : Sometimes I ask, who am I, why am I here. I cant get the answer.
God : Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be. Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here. Create it. Life is not a process of discovery but a process of creation.

Me: How can I get the best out of life?
God : Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear.
Me: One last question. Sometimes I feel my prayers are not answered.
God : There are no unanswered prayers. At times the answer is NO.
Me : Thank you for this wonderful chat. I am so happy to start the New Year with a new sense of inspiration.
God : Well. Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don't believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve not a problem to resolve. Trust me. Life is wonderful if you know how to live.