Much Ado About Permanency

I've got two worries that come and go in my mind as they please throughout the days and weeks lately.

Both are intertwined, somehow attracted to each other like a magnet, and it is of the essence that things work out, ideally in a duo manner and settle in a place that's Heaven sent.

"Think positive and good things will happen." repeats KT to me for like the 100th time. Sigh, easier said that done for a pessimist like me. 'Hope for the best, but be prepared for the worst' is my mantra.

For now, I can only do what I can within my means. Manage the situation as of currently. Practise pre-emptive measures and plan for the future. At least when shit hits the fan with either worry or worse case scenario with both, I can tell myself I tried to prevent it from happening. At least I did something before the situation started to dwindle. At least, I can pacify myself that perhaps this is fate and unfortunately, this might/will be one of those times where I don't get what I want. But I’ll be happier than a bird with a French fry if I (fingers and toes crossed) am blessed enough to have one or the other working out for me, as it might/will signify a new chapter for both matters at stake.

I am praying hard that my efforts will not perish in the flames of hope gone awry by a cruel twist of fate.

Dear God, please let me see this through. After all, I've come this far…