That Other World...

There are days where I feel mundane and wish for something eventful to happen, to stir mundanity off its course.

Today is one of those days.

While I type away in an office that overlooks the sea, while I age with every minute that passes by, the world outside is sprawling with life.

I feel indifferent about things today.

I just do not want to care and I'll be frank to enquiring minds. Sometimes, it appears that people do but in actual fact they just don't seem to care at all. Sometimes, you leave matters in the hands of others but you get a little frantic, more agitated when there is no follow-up. Because it is in your nature to want to get things done. Sometimes, you have the best of intentions at heart but you are misunderstood and feel like throwing glass at the wall, watching it shatter in slow-mo. Sometimes, it is inevitable to feel alone even though your support circle is within reach and you have all the love you need.

The auto-pilot has been activated and I have begun my retreat. To another world in my mind until the real world makes sense again.

I am anticipating tomorrow and looking forward to witnessing the look on my daddy's face when he discovers his surprise. This thought is my saving grace. It will save me from today, bring me to tomorrow and carry me throughout next week.

Failure is not an option. Tomorrow is crucial.