Addicted Anonymous

"In the hospital, we see addiction every day. It's shocking how many kinds of addiction exist. It would be too easy if it were just drugs and booze and cigarettes. I think the hardest part of kicking a habit is wanting to kick it. I mean, we get addicted for a reason, right? Often, too often, things that start out as just a normal part of your life at some point cross the line to obsessive, compulsive, out of control. It's the high we're chasing, the high that makes everything else fade away..."

 

We all have an addiction of some sort. Perhaps we will always be hooked on it for to us, there is no known cure. It's like seeing your ex again after years of uncrossed paths. You're weak in the knees, your heart is thumping and you realise you're not that over him.

 

And even if there is a cure known to us, the question of whether we would induce the cure on ourselves is another. Some of us are too afraid, fearful of the unknown as to what happens after. Because of this, we remain addicted for it feels safer even although it's not healthy to our being. This is similarly the case for people in abusive relationships. Stuck in a vicious comfort zone, we get too comfortable for our own good. Some of us do strive to push forward but arch backwards instead and experience the pain over and over and over again. 

 

There is a common universal remedy in all addictive situations. The remedy is simply the truth. The truth stings but it will numb us and set us free. It allows for liberation and emancipation, releasing us from the invisible chains that bind. Only then we will be able to clear our conscience, overcome the enemy within and come clean. But the question of whether we want to face the truth or otherwise is inevitably ours to answer, our choice to make.

 

I point my finger at unrealised expectations, for addictions. And the root of impulses is where the stems originate from. 

 

An Impulse -->  Chasing the High --> The Unexpected --> Unrealised Expectation --> The Addiction

 

I'm Perfectly Flawed and I'm an addict.